A friend asked around for an dentist experience, which i recalled i had an article. This also made me reflect on how long i had not written in my blog.
It is school holidays again. Not a very simple thing as this is the time where all the schedules are undone as children are not spending their time in school. And so does some individuals.
During the last holidays, i picked up a lot jobs, from supermarket serving hams, teaching a small group of 10 children, administrative and also volunteer tasks. At the same time, emotions was badly strained by actions of other whom might cause me to be homeless. I would like to take this opportunity to thank the church for taking me in, comforting me and gave me food, spiritual food during these times of hardship.
I was lucky. I was picked up by a principal, now i can assist the teachers. They taught me how to handle group of children, something i am not really good at. I am a slow learner and i admit i am still learning how to. I have my challengers both from the young and the adults, but i kept reminding myself, i had faced worse, this is nothing. There are things i have done that are redundant and not appreciated, i am glad to have it as a experience. It is not easy, i accepted a class of 10 rowdy children outside my work hours which i had a enriched experience how does a international school works. i also started giving tuition to a family of children, which i find them a pleasure, sometimes. Same, learning the ropes. I was so into the computer world, that the personal touch was quite gone, i have to pick up where i left off.
However, things doesn't as smooth as i prayed to be everyday. Home is not getting better. though it appears to be back as a normal household, actually, those pesky girls from Vietnam are still around. The recent proof broke my heart, and yet, i know i cannot voice it out. i prayed for guidance, i couldn't see help. i just hang on, and hoped. And it hit me so hard, that i have to cancel all my classes, and there goes my income. And on top of that, due to the school holidays, i have to pay for excursion trips i prepare for my children. On top of all these, i am also supposed to give money to the breadwinner, who does not seems to have money of his own because he had happily sent it out to other countries and assumed that he spend it on the family.
I gave the money as if i paying my toll for my pain. This is absurd and yet, i still have to do it.
But this goes on like that, i really hope, God will have to intervene.
Once again, i thank all for reading my woes. I hope i will write more frequently.
